2nd Day of "Rotting"

 I watched all 12 episodes of Chainsawman from 7pm+ - 10:30pm I think. Then when the movie ended

I had a sudden realisation that I have nothing else to do (to numb my feelings) so my feelings just came out in the form of crying

Cried like 2 hours like I went through a break up  I wanna laugh at myself now but yea. Slept and cry again then actually wrote a journal just to express my feelings

Then continue to sleep then I am okay already the next day

Then it came to yesterday, which I cried after I talked to my mum which you already know the story

My point is… the more that I express my feelings and spent more time to sit with my feelings

I start to find peace and I am able to guide myself better.